flying on a paper plane

i hate work.
work sucks.
but i need money.

no.
i should rephrase them.

i hate my manager.
my manager sucks.
but i need money.

how can i continue surviving.
in an environment,
with no welfare,
and with my weight loss of 13kg.

she sucks.
she don't deserve to be a manager.
 

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on the other hand,
i miss love.

the news about his name,
submitted for Brunei posting,
shook me.

for a year.
*gulps*

not trying to be selfish,
i refuse to let him go.

he himself do not wish to go.
same goes for his family.

sigh.
patiently waiting for his posting.
at the same time,
treasuring all the time i have left with him.

and if it happens,
i forsee all my leave in 2010 will be destinated to:
Brunei Darussalam.

that equates to more finance.
savings: on the double!

let's say,
i'm willing to go the distance for him.
:)

currently,
glee's cover on Empire State of Mind is on repeat.
non-stop.
loving their moves, cant stop gooving.
my dancing is karat but im having fun hahahahahahaha!

wonder who's having their special day today.
10/10/10.
funny how back in secondary school,
when mr felix called for all councillors to meet
at 10:10am, we concluded he was getting married
with the tune of ten-ten-ten-ten..ten-ten-ten-ten...(haha cacat)
and it was shockingly funny that it was indeed true when he
handed out his wedding invitation. xD

nothing much in my mind now.
previous braces appt i decided to stick with the some colour: silver.
told Dr Yong my tooth sensitivity was increasing and asked if i should
change my toothpaste to Sensondyne haha!
told him was meeting friends after the appt for lunch and he decided
not include the nasty rubber bands that has been causing me much pain.
thanks man!
but most likely, next appt i will ask him to put back those bands cos
i want my teeth to move quickly!
like right now, my fangs are in line with the rest.
gerek or what?

so that's that!
*sings* NEW YORKKKKK~

hope it gives you hell!
haha finally completed Season 1 Glee.
i know im like fishing slow but who cares.
i like :)
Season 2, please appear in DVD soon enough!
perhaps for the meantime,
i will occupy myself with Ugly Betty Season 5.. (WHAT?! season 4 was the last?! gee..)
hopefully the dvd is up for rental soon!
i speak like as though i have too much free time to occupy.
i wish!

anyways,
i should have dilligently update my braces journey
but haha sept is busy much.
basically, previous appt had another adjustment.
my fangs have came down to the same level
and im wearing a full set of braces
cos previously the orthodentist left two teeth out since it was still crowded.
and i chose silver bands!
i wanted to keep it simple for hari raya haha...

speaking of hari raya,
it just feels different.
like the gerek-ness and kick not there.
and this year, raya with love is not possible -again.
sigh.
but this year i get to score 2x bonus with his mum.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah! xD
as usual, i'll send his family the cookies/kuihs i bake.
and she totally love my new choc chip recipe HEHH!
the next bonus was she sought my help to find her long, lost relative.
and that relative of hers happen to be a nurse.
maybe i was really lucky and with much prayers to Allah,
i found her relative in less than 48 hours!
gerek or what?
haha detective sue ;D

izwan's birthday is coming up very soon!
he's POP is this saturday.
not given the opportunity to go -sobsob
but haha i'm already proud of him for all that he's
gone thru in tekong!
eh really, Every Singaporean Son's episodes really
make me understand what he's doing.
im such a spoiler, i already told him what i wanted to give him
for his 21st hahaha.
bcos he was on the verge to get the same thing
that ive planned eversince last year! (i swear)
terpaksa blurt it out. spoiler. xD

it's quite silly how we JUST only found out both of us like the colour purple.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
he's just the cutest one after all these years! :))

gee, ive much to say but then
mind not flowing properly like water hahaha!
bad english-

oh recently im in love with TLTSN!
The Little Things She Needs.
LOVE the paperbag, LOVE the colour cos it's purple,
LOVE the pumps cos it's way comfortable than rubi's (my opinion),
LOVE the heart charm bracelet i bought.
in LOVE with that shop hahahaha. :D
they should change the shop to 'The Little Things She Wants'.

i have a tea and cake date with hazi and dhilah tmrw,
rather than the usuals of coffee and cake.
i have my appt with the orthodentist on the 5th. (silver bands, again?)
i have a Cassis date with basitah soon.
i have love out of camp till the 11th.

i miss him. :)

last words for this post, I WANT TO WATCH GLEE SEASON 2!

let's get on with it!
hit the dental clinic today.
like so sad, day off also need to smell tan tock seng. haha-
so i had to kind of wait a lil longer despite them calling me
a week back to say they postpone my appt by 10mins. xD
first time sey dengar cmtu haha-
the staff got me to choose the colour for my bands while waiting.
somehow, somewhat,
of all blues, Midnight Blue is just super attractive!
i'm kind of hating the purple bands i had on previously.
it faded and de-colour-ized after quite awhile. not nice at all!
bad choice haha-

the whole adjustment process was quick and brief.
asked Dr Yong why i had to have the palette thingy in my mouth
which kind of defect my speech a lil haha-
his answer was quite complex i must say hahahahahahahahaha-
what i can remember is something like lower teeth, biting, molars, move etc.
xD

i think i was just too excited to see how the Midnight Blue looks on me
that i get his words all jumble up.
however, he did say my speech has improved and my teeth is moving as planned!
at one moment it feels as though i was referred to a speech therapist. -___-"
the adjustment did bring a whole load of bearable pain.
i shant say pain...hmms how to describe ey?
it's like dullness like when u feel ur baby tooth is loose and about to drop.
yea that kind.

the situation right now, aching much.
must be the tightening taking effect.
nonetheless, big beautiful smile, here i come!
chet, padahal lame lagi sey -___-"

moving on with life,
i have to thank Basitah for giving me the permission to link this post to hers.
HEEES.
if you guys are keen to read about my trip to KL,
it's right here:

056:KL Trip
and then, i've kind of started on the Tumblr hip.
mostly putting up pics down there,
so feel free to check it out : Mangkuk

work is being nonsensical with trash and bird poos,
eversince i came back from leave.
some people are just -no comments.
upstairs people are also just -no comments.
certain patients/relatives are simply -no comments.

ramadhan is coming up really fast!
time to stock up locker with food =D

in the movie 'New Moon',
Edward Cullen told Isabella Swan,
"Leaving you was the hardest thing i've done in a 100 years..."

in reality,
this is what i'll tell you,
"Leaving you will be the hardest thing.. Ever..."

and then i'll add on,
"...and that will never happen."



please believe me.
in case you read this, i just needed to pen it down.

Gosh.
it's hard being a writer of a 'book'.
i shall resign-
hahahaha. nah.
here's the long due-ed post.
my braces is a week and one day old today!

Well the whole process was rather insane.

( Chapter 3 )

( Chapter 4 )
On a lighter note!
my annual leave have started eversince 5th of July.
the feeling of shiokness of smelling freedom from work.
i know, crazy but hey, we need a breather from work sometime.
and for me, i need it since a very LONG time.
so up till 17th July, i have my much awaited KL trip to look foward!
which is in like LESS than 24 HOURS! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
i love basitah, i love fadhilah for making this happen for us!
will come back on 11th July with tons of pictures!

till then,
much Smiles! :)

P/S: can anyone feel how egg-cited i am?!?!  :D :D :D :D
P/P/S: my first trip to KL and with my girlfriends! :D

and so, the continuation of my braces journey!

( yippy-dy-yay )( yippy-dy-yay )
moving on,
meeting love yesterday after his first book out from tekong resort
is bliss- (read:supreme happiness)
when we met, nothing was spoken at the start.
just super glad to be in each others' arms. :)
spent wonderful quality time and the best part,
when we wanted to head down to NUS from WCP,
we took the bus and dropped at the next stop.

why?

the driver was having fever and he couldnt drive.
hahahaha!
never did i expect that to happen.
otherwise, thankful that he was willing to sit in Gentarasa with me.
dangg- is it me or i really find the whole thing quite blah-
and when they introduced taufik like no link to the whole story.
weird-

sighh. 5 days will past very fast.
will meet him again the next friday to come.
i can do it!
proud to have u love :)

i didn't really mean heat stroke by it's defination.
i tend to get this heat-flush kind of wave in the body
when he calls. HEEES!
is that what you call blushing?
hahaha but can't recall seeing myself looking red.

just doing one random post cos i just ate
half a quarter pounder and my stomach feels so full.
must be the beeeeeeef.

it's been 4 days since izwan departed for tekong resort
and well, he's been doing good..
and he's been calling me and send at least a sms every night!
hehe so sweet :)
i know 4 days seems like oh baru-baru,
still kemaruks..
but i hope things will work out well...
really, really hope!

otherwise, i cant wait till mid-june to continue
my braces journey.
exciting but yet, heart-racing-mind-boggling kind of thing?
if i were to do polling here, will it work?
however who reads this journal of mine,
what colour bands should i get for my braces?
throw me in some colours and i shall go figure haha!

i wont take pink, yellow, black or white.
i might hit purple for the first round. :D

or maybe i shall wait till i whine and groan
after they did the extractions.

i'll try grinning myself to sleep haha!
gd morning :) :) :)

i'm suppose to sleep after one haggard night,
chasing after demented and simply 'sort' patients.
i'm tired but my mind is just not there yet in dreamland.
nope, this is not another braces post.
usually if it is i'll label which chapter we've reached.

love's leaving to serve the nation tmrw noon.
the urge of running to pasir ris and to ferry terminal
after night shift is super, duper huge.
guess i'll put it aside and await his call.

now that is hasnt even started,
i wish it would be over very soon.
i don't know how it feels but what
i know is i will definitely miss him -badly.
cos who knows i happen to be stuck on an afternoon
shift on the day he happen to book out
or whatever that might happen lah hor-

insyallah things will work out,
we will be strong,
more like 'I' will be strong,
and i'll see him finish NS and
he'll see me remove my braces :D

oh wells,
good luck to him and me! :)


P/S: what shall i say to him when i meet him? HAHAHAHA!